I Fought Through The Dark Fog To A Better Life For Me

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“If I had broken away from the dark fog surrounding my vision and spoken my true feelings earlier, I would have missed out on experiences I fondly miss”.

Prior to graduating high school I received my acceptance letter to Bond University. I would be moving across to the other side of the country, in May 2012. My boyfriend and I were skeptical if long-distance would work. We had only been going out for 5 months prior to my departure day. There is not one part of my body that could say it was easy. Long-distance was continuously challenging. We would try and Skype each night but my internet was bad so it never worked, so our relationship was based on a phone screen and a occasional letter in the mail. Moving to QLD was one of the most scariest things and best things I have ever done. I did not know anyone and had been cocooned in the schooling bubble for thirteen years. Although I say it was one of the best decisions I made, it was also a nightmare at times. I felt overwhelmed and torn between my two lives. One life I felt free and studious and could just hang out with friends all day whilst the other life I was committed, happy and free from responsibilities. After a year it became too tiring. I continuously wanted to go home and when I was home I didn’t want to go back to reality. I hated how I made my life so complicated and hard for no reason. It wasn’t until I collapsed in a screaming heap that I realised I had to change something about my life. I wasn’t happy anymore. My life was one big fog, and all I prayed for was for my studies to finish so I could come home, and live the life I wanted, not what I thought “looked” good. That week I suddenly deferred my semester and decided to come home. This was also one of the hardest decisions i’ve made. To have to admit that the original decision was not working and i’m not happy took months to gain courage to tell outsiders. This decision was also the best decision I have ever made for myself. It took me 6 months to have the guts to face the fact I was mentally ill and overall not happy with life.

Looking back on that time in QLD, I truly do miss it. However, I miss the best friends I made and the social life. Those aspects in the end were just not important enough compared to my own health and lifestyle.

Since moving home my life has turned around, over 3 years and still with the boyfriend who had to deal with long distance with me and still studying psychology, however the overall difference is my stress levels are low, i’m overall happy and content with the life I live at the moment.

If I had broken away from the dark fog surrounding my vision and spoken my true feelings earlier, I would have missed out on experiences I fondly miss.

Day 12 assignment for writing 101

Today’s Prompt: Write a post inspired by a real-world conversation.

Today’s twist: include an element of foreshadowing in the beginning of your post.

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